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How to get going with my lazy blogger self..

Posted in Chit-Chat by dearestfriend on July 27, 2010

Hey folks..

I have this problem, where i keep faltering to keep my blog enthu. But only good thing is after reading good posts from others I keep missing my old blog.
Here are few ideas I have to keep me glued..

– Maintain a diary on blog, that may give me more push to be sincere and regular
– increase focus on something specific to generate more traffic.
– May be make it a mommy blog, though I hate to make it one!
– May be follow the cooking recipe route!!
– May a gossip blog, As I love reading Gossip and writing about movie reviews.
– Maybe write a novel or short story collection here…

Do you folks have any ideas?

Another new year.. another set of resolutions…

Posted in Chit-Chat by dearestfriend on January 29, 2010

It’s amazing to realise that I havent posted here for almost 4 months. Given that I love to write, That s very strange behaviour from me. And to top it, I have lot happening in my life, in my world around me, in general everything.. Still Getting yourself up to do something good is so hard as adult..
there are just so many diversions and distractions.

Now that we have entered a new year. I want to promise few things to me..

– I will complete the book on my mind and just GET IT PUBLISHED… And see the reaction..
– I will get myself sharpened on professional edge and get myself a good job that I can love.
– Help My small kid develop a good balanced personality
– Help my sis for her delivery. This is very personal, as last pregnancy fo hers ended in still birth. And we all still find ourselves in so much pain..
– Learn a new skill, Piano / dance/ Skating/ just anything.. but learn buddy..
– Do one small charity and make the difference in at least one poor child’s life.

Pheeww… It s hard to keep thinking about it..

Why its so difficult to keep up??

Posted in Chit-Chat by dearestfriend on September 4, 2009

Hmmm.. Gone for another 2-3 months.. Why…
I dont understand however much I try to keep the blog rolling, I keep slipping. It seems like impossible to be active blogger on sustained pace.. Deeper I think, Clearer I get in analysis.

I think it may due to absent reader base… Got to re-invent my writing to atleast get more users to write back..
Come on folks, Throw some suggestion, what do you think I can do to make this more appealign to readers..

Z

Zigsaw of life

Posted in Chit-Chat by dearestfriend on June 22, 2009

You got to forgive me for holding on to this draft for more than 10 years.. atleast thats what WordPress tell me.
…. Last edited by dearestfriend on November 30, 1999 at 12:00 am ….

No idea how s that possible , As my blog is in action only since early 2007.. Time to fix some data issues folks.. Anyone listening.. Knock knock wordpress..

Ok.. Let s proceed with the post..

“””” Life has a way of surprise us all the time. Just when we think we have slogged it all, we deserve the peace and progress, Something somewhere happens to whack our little world. It happens with me all the time.
A friend who is dying with cancer, a collegaue who vanishes on one one fine weekend in “””””

******resuming from there , I think it was almost 2 years back when I wrote it. It was triggered by a meeting with a colleague who had death written all over his face. There was one colleague across my office cube, who had been on looong vacation ever since I came in the neighbourhood. I never met the person until that day.I have heard our HR lady talk about his health status, his recovery from Collon cancer , Relapse and then his decision of moving back to his home town. HR lady conducted some japanese ritual of making 1000 Origamy birds in sheer hope of some miracle.. I made some 50 birds out of sheer desperate wish to see my colleague recover..
Then other day HR lady told that his situation was worsening and doctors have done the worst.. That is to tell how many days he may live.. So HR person would send his friends’ group to meet in person. I thought that was very humane action. These folks went and gave all the origamy birds. No need to say he was very humbled. After few weeks he decided to fly back to our office to bid “final bye”.. Now how morbid is that… to meet a person very first time, whose name plate you are seeing for few months, only to see impending death in his eyes.
He was going on to say usual hi-hellos to new comers like me. He came to my office and introduced himself…
” I think you dont know me, I am Mr X and I thought I would fly back to say hi in person to everyone. I was like I know you are X.. How are you doing? and then I said , “I hope you recover soon”. I myself knew how futile was that wish. But didnt know what else I could say in this situation…..
And I saw this deafening expression of ” I know I am going to die in next two weeks”. And I think I got my reality check in his eyes..We all just run , run and run.. Never pause and think we could go in one blink of eye and never be back. If that indeed happened, would it really matter if we were one or two miles back in race….

Love the word “Love”

Posted in Chit-Chat by dearestfriend on May 8, 2009

Not sure if it s just me or many who feel like this..
Once in a while even in a seemingly happy life, we feel this emptiness of not being Loved…
I mean how you feel that you love everyone around and there is no one who loves you. So empty feeling… It happens to me once in a while.. And they you know what I do ?

I just cling to the word love.. I feel its so positive and magical to let despair last.. Sometime I feel when you love everyone around you, you get so free of clutter inside. I practically see the dirt of misunderstandings, schemes and hatred washing away in my own heart..

I know its too personal post.. But what the heck.. Lot of people do it.. I mean talk about their lives on their blogs.. While its been a year for this blog. I havent been able to find my own niche in writing. So trying this party as well. Do let mw know how it sounded to you..

See ya

Me bad bad.. Bad..

Posted in Chit-Chat by dearestfriend on January 21, 2008

Hello folks..

Sorry for abandoning my dear blog and its readers. I am surprised to see several readers even after three months of inactivity.
Thanks folk, at least someone care about what I think 😉
First and foremost…

Wish you all a very happy happy Dashing New year.
I didn’t do much on celebration per say. But you see I got my left knee broken (Torn ACL) in December second week. So I had excuse to lie lazy. Now those who are new to ACL (Anterior Cruciate Ligament), Worry not.. I spent decades without knowing about this useful piece.

I am going to start a journal for my journey with ACL injury so far and recovery there on. I have a surgery scheduled on First of feb.. So will Update.. Lemme first create my ACL injury category.

Now coming back to normal life. I have loads to share.. So much that doesn’t know where to start from.

Let’s start from last movie I saw.. The game (Anthony Hopkins and some other people) .. It was a weird chain of mysterious event happening to this old, bored banker. And in the end they tried to connect the jigsaw with a moral lesson…”You should live your fears first to release yourself totally” I liked the message. But didn’t like the way it was made..

I have been glued to ESPN for last week, thanks to Australian Open. I usually avoid TV like plague otherwise. I have got new favorites so far..

“Nadal” – Fierce player with a lot of attitude
“Tipsarvic” – What a strong character in sports.. I mean the guy Gave Rogere federer a total run for his game.
“Baghdatis” – Wonderful Sports man. You need to watch his last game with Hewitt to know why I am saying so.
I have not found new favorite in Women’s game so far.. Will add more later

Breaking the writing ice…

Posted in Chit-Chat by dearestfriend on October 23, 2007

Oh god.. how can I be so insensitive to a less-known author in me.. Its fine If I am not one of hugely popular blog.. And May be no one asked me to write a novel.. 😉 still I owe my inner author this writing space.
I always thought writing was exhilarating to me. Then what happened.. Was I greedy for only writing if anyone reads? I think that ‘s like a conditional love. And it s always bad. You either like doing something or you don’t.
So busy bee is back to write at her less known place. But I am glad that some people were reading it.. I mean i have not touched it in past 30 days.. And I still see occasional small hikes in my readerships. Thank you dear readers, who give chance to someone like me.. Thanks thanks thanks.. It really means a lot to me.
I had been uselessly busy in all things unimportant. Sometimes you know how you get stuck in some useless stuff.. It likes never ending. I need to post a picture of recently painted card. I will I will I will. I promise this to myself..

Heart of an Idiot…

Posted in Chit-Chat by dearestfriend on September 20, 2007

Well I have grown to realise that only idiots are supposed to have heart touched by everything. Practical, smart and successful people dont carry their heart on their sleeves. First time I realised I am actually an Idiot by heart ..was when one of my school friend(4th standard) fooled me for some fitcitious garden in her house. I actually believed she did have one.. But once i visited her house , it turned out she was telling her weired fantasies to me .. Poor and idiot me.. believed her..

I allow people to mutilate and severely damage my heart again and again and again.. and you know what at the end I still convince myself to forgive them.. This nice gal syndrome is actually taking its toll on me now.. I am growing to feel drained and fooled and idiotic.

But for some reason I am stuck to this self. Because I dont know any other way. I am like this only.. Made of clay , ready to melt at any rain of affection from my dear ones.. and a clay who can moulded N no of times and would still be intact.. till one day storm of death takes me away with it.. I have heared my own people scream at me, telling me.. You are so dumb, so foolish, so idiot.. and all I feel for them is.. How I managed to hurt them so bad..

Few Idiots feats of mine…

– I helped a very selfish girl in office. Whom whole office didnt help.. I stoody by her , helped her and later on hear her bitching about me .. And you know what I still dont hate her.. I am no god.. I am just idiot.

– I had stood by a so-called “thief” in my PG, she was cute lil teenage gal, who was studying in some college. Everybody except me claimed she steals things, money and everything else. Where there was a theft , people would suspect Mona.. Then there was this last call for her.. she was asked to leave hostel.. I was only shoulder which had to cry on.. Whole hostel told me ..I was fool to support a thief.. I still did.. I could never believe that gal that innocent can be thief.

– back to college I used to help each adn every ill gal in hostel. I was the only fool to rush them to doctors during exam. Once a gal in my batch had asthama attack.. and we were having very tough exam next day.. Even best of her friend forsook that gal.. But I chipped in.. and borrowed a scooter and took her to doc.. Big thing was I was driving scooter first time..

Everytime i recount these things.. I dont feel bad or good.. I just feel how other think I am idiot.. and how I feel that there is no other way i can behave..

Rock on..

Posted in Chit-Chat by dearestfriend on September 10, 2007

One pleasent and positive change in my life..
I have taken out my painting studio and set it up in my patio. And guess what I have even started sketching landscape on it. Quite an achievment for someone like me.. I have been thinking and thinking and thinking of doing it. I will post the pictures once I am done. I can actually post it even in between stages. Will try one in this week.

I sent some 1-2 hours and my 3 months of thinking was in action. I guess action is more powerful than thinking. It gives more satisfaction and pleasure. Any one of you have any nice card ideas to paint ..please pass on. I want to paint Diwali cards this time myself and post it to everyone. Quite an ambition ..But I am like this only.. Stretching and extending my ownself each and every other breath. that gives me some kind of high.

I am also having one hell of idea about a book. I need to start jotting it down too..
Will pass on some excerpts once done..

Posted in Chit-Chat by dearestfriend on September 6, 2007

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle – a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don’t actively fight them.
You’re just you. You don’t try to be what people expect you to be.
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